I don't know if its any good or not... just thought i would write some stuff down...

Can't look forward, just not ready yet
But I can't just stay here in the past
...just somewhere in the middle...
...lost...
Everytime I think about moving forward
Something always pulls me back
...haunting me...
...still lost...
Scaring me enough to not let me move on
And continuously making me stay in the past
...trying to fix it...
...always lost...
But I cant change the past
Unfortunately, it's my only comfort
...my security...
...forever lost...
The past I regret, but the future is to unpredictable
Things got out-of-hand, it shouldn't have happened
...my worse mistake...
...i'm sorry...


I don't know if you guys like it or not... kind of new at this

okay these are like my first ones i ever wrote...they arent good..lol

everything was getting back to normal,
i was slowly forgetting you
untill i saw you standing there
and then i felt all those undescribable feels comeing back to me <<3

it's been so long since we talked, and just seeing you has got my whole world turned up side down, AGAIN

if only you knew how many feelings i *had* for you, and just seeing you once after nine months made all my feelings for you slowly come back to me..

Alot went on last summer, but the thing i wanted most never happened. almost a year later, you are slowly trying to make it better between us, and even though i wont let you put me through anymore pain, i just cant say no to you



^they pretty much are all alike but just written diffrent, but i just want to see what you guys think, thanks ;-)

I like them!

He sits close to a near by tree
Watching from a distance, you can tell that he bleeds
Bleeds inside, the deepness of his heart
His life story lies within his eyes
Not many halcyon memories in the past few years
His emotions so tender, there isn't much to look forward to here
I care for him so profoundly, if only I could live through his pain
Will he let me help, or will he refrain?
I will embrace his wounds and steal his scars
He doesn't need anymore of this misery

ehh. i'm not so good at poems. please tell me what you think! thanks a lot!

Heres a few of mine........Tell me what u think
I DONT
~People say not to like u
I dont
I love u
~People say not 2 want u
i dont
I have 2 have u
~People say not to cry over u
I dont
I bawl over u
~People say not to set my heart on u
I dont
Its already been set
~People say not 2 like u
i dont
I love you




Can it b how it used to be u and me
Can u give me a day to show u
How much I care for u, give me a day, i dare u
Can i talk to u on the phone once more like we always did before
Can you give me five minutes to explain 1 sentence
I luv u so y cant u try n luv me




Do u know how much that hurt?
All that *beep* u said 2 her
i'm not easy and im sure the hell not a *beep*
If I wanted 2, with u, I couldve done tons more
It hurts when u tell her u hate me and i'm a *beep*
it hurts whwen u dont even act as if I exist
It hurts when I lie to my bet friend for u
It hurts most of all when to me all u say is i wanna screw u
i want u more than u could no
I dont *beep* u though, b/c i dont want u to consider me a f*in hoe
u told her i try to get with u behind her back
Come on, cut me some slack
A always let u talk to me first and ur the 1 with a gf
i aint got no1 waiting so i aint doing nuthing wrong
except for luvin u, which ive done for so long
I dont care what the hells goin on
i dont care if its wrong
I'm going to do anything u want me 2
And I'm not a *beep*
i just truly love you
But i just had to write this to let u know
The feelings that i felt that I didnt show
So I guess I'll talk to u lata
but 4now I must go and cry a lil about my life
and cry a ton about u and all the pain u've put me through
Then wake up and know its not a dream
And ur no where close to being done with hurting me



*A friend once told me not to change for a guy or a girl!
Well its about timeI wish that friend would take his own advice
y are u withher? I'm not asking y ur not with me but what in her do u see?
Baby, after all the *beep* she put u through
go and look at what u do
u took her back without a sound
And i dont know if uve notice but once again she has turned ur life back around
Do u remember chad when she cheated on u?
Do u remember how much that hurt?
So y did u go back to again just to be treated like dirt?
Chad, baby, I wanted to let you know some advice I once heard form a friend
*Never change for a girl, u'll just lose ur friends& turn into some one ur not

hey those are pretty good! i like the one that starts like this Do u know how much that hurt? a lot!

heres some i wrote:

Hear that? Yeah, its my heart breakin'

Love is like war
-->easy to start<--
hard to end
and impossible to forget

Ever have those nights when u just cant sleep?
Maybe cuz ur in someone elses d.r.e.a.m.s

they have been around the site as you can see, but i do remember writing them before i say them.

saw*

[B][FONT=Impact][SIZE=1][COLOR=purple]One Day,
He'll remeber us together
He'll remeber when we touched
It was like an angel keeping us together
Intel we feel apart
He let this beautiful thing we had
Fall to pieces
Just like my heart
He was everything
My shining star
The one that lights up the sky
Your just to beautiful to let pass by
And if my world would fall apart
He said to always lead with your heart
But what happens when he didn't take his own word
He takes something different
My Heart....


<33 Just don't let it go<33

-~Hott Stuff
-~Sexi too
-~Boyz Stopn
-~Just to stare
-~Take a Numba bOi
-~You can't handle
-~Me n My gurlz stuff
-~So begg n pleed
-~Get on your knees
-~Like wat you see
-~But remeber this
-~My Gurls n I
-~Are super glam
-~All we needa do
-~Is clap our hands
-~So talk *beep*
-~On us
-~Will see it though
-~God blessed us
-~Wat da heck happened to you[/SIZE]

tell me if you like ok?



Why do I still like him? Why Do I still care? Him knowing that I exsist..Is all that I ask for...I just wish it could be a little more...



My old best friends are still in my heart..
with playdoo memoires
and are time to say our part..
we had a good friend ship I wish we still did..
but the most important thing is its all done and said...




~*~Our parents thought *It will last forever*
Our Friends thought *We were alwas together*
Our siblings thought * It will never end*
You and I thought *That we should just be friends*~*




::Everyone alwas has a true love come in there life*...*SOme of the people who really love ech other get married *others* like you and me end up never seeing each other again.::




Bitchs only take every thing you want in life...I guess im just the luckey one



Theres only one guy in mind mind for me.
And that guy is You.~*~::~
you just don't under stand...
YoUr The OnNe My HeArT HaS ChoOSe.
I Can't KeEp It FroM Loving you...~~::*!:
bUt I'll Try To KeeP my MinD FrOm
LoVinG you As HaRd As It MiGhT SouNd...



Its TiMe To Wake Up SaId My
Young Sister..
I saId 5 MorE minUtes Im tring
To Slove ThE wHy
YouR NoT in MY DrEAm...


My Mind Has Left The Love
My Love has left the mind
My heart has stayed with you
Your heart has left and mine
to me is all about yOu...



Life goes by to quick
Dawn by dust
Dust by dawn
And then poof
Everythings gone...

brunette barbie, do you watch Degrassi?

Hey I just wrote this a little while ago... tell me if you think it's good or bad... idc i just want to see what other people think of it... thanks

Sometimes I think I have found the real me, the one that's who I want to be. I start out every morning as this girl. But as each person comes into my day, I begin to become what they want to be. And by the end of the day, i'm not even close to the girl I started out to be. Because through the day I f a d e d a w a y

hey can someone please make me a poem..about not wanting to fall to pieces? :-) thanks!

Blinded by my tears
Stained by the blood
You turned my heart to stone
And now ive got no one
Im drunk off ur lies
Tormented by ur look
Ur eyes are so powerful
Stabbed with my own fear
Haunting me for years


Broken Black hearts
Never seem to last
Memories of my past
Give me reason to fight
My hope is torwn
Into Graves of scard thoughts
Running through my head
You left me without an option
Eveythinggg is done and said



Tears fill my eyes.
Lies fill my heart.
Im standing a part.
So tired of being here.
Trying not to care.
I wouldnt dare.
Sometimes im ignored.
Being friends isnt worth it anymore.
I need something more.
To complete me.
Im emtpy hearted.
Im dying inside.
I need adrealine.
My heart is pounding
And my eyes are soar.
I can't feel anything anymore.
Im fading away.
My eyes go dull.
And I can finally Escape.
The black takes over.
The pain is numbed.



--Blind me Black--
Bleed for Me.
Show me You care
Just like I did.
When you made me tair.
Hold me in your arms.
Tell me eveything is going to be alright.
Don't leave me here.
Don't walk out of my sight.
I need you in my life.
I need to know you're here.
Say you love me.
Dont disappear.
Believe in me.
Dont waste any tears.
Pretend everything is okay.
And hide your fears.

Soon disater will strike
The storm of secrets
Nothing is never alright
My escape will be tradgic
Ill be in the depth of all pits
Blood will be my background.
I didnt make it.
Blind me Black..


tell me what you think..*

i wrote a rly gay song when i was like 8 years old and wanted to be the next jessica simpson and i like copied her i think im in love song. but like heres one verse that wasnt completely gay like the other ones.

i need a shoulder to cry on, i need someone to run to when im feeling blue. i need someone to love me and that someone could be you.*;

hehe yah its gay ik.. but i just thought i would contirbute something to this little page =) good day

ok i just made this 1 up it may be stupid but oh well here it is



im *s m i l i n g*
because im *h i d i n g*
what i want to do
which is *c r y i n g*

ok wait hi its me again im gonna change my quote a lil

im *s m i l i n g*
because im *h i d i n g*
what i should be doing
which is *c r y i n g*

oomg lol im changing it again!!!!!

Im *s m i l i n g*
Because im *h i d i n g*
what i should be doing
!~*c r y i n g*~!

that is sooooo adorable!! im not even kiddin!! i love it gurl!!

i remember ;
when we were holding hands;
i [playfully]sqeezed as hard as i could,
and you looked at our locked fingers,
then in my eyes, & laughed*
ii stopped 'nd u asked why...??
as i let my fingers slip thru his..
i whispered *i cant do this anymore*
-you knew exactly what i meant....

that actually happened with one of my ex's.thats how we broke up, long story!! lol,but i just decorated it and stuff.and yea there it is!! lol what do you think??

Herez one that I wrote, I wrote it for my boyfriend, he seemed 2 lyk it


Something that I prayed for every night
Someone to love and hold me tight
And then all of the sudden, you came out of the blue
This feeling came over me, it was so fresh and so new
You took me away from all my fears
And made me happy, wiped off all my tears
I tell you everything, your my best friend
And I hope were together, til the very end
Whenever you feel like you have nothing, just realize from the start
You have something no one else has....
My heart

....A Girl's Love....
I love it when he looks at me, and runs his fingers through my hair
I love it when he leans over, and whispers in my ear
I love it when he calls me, just to say goodnight
I love that he thinks i'm beautiful when im not much of a sight
I love the way he listens to me and doesnt say a word
I love it when he reads my eyes, the words that go unheard
I love it when he holds my hand, in front of people to see
I think i just love that fact that he's in love with me.
I love the way he kisses me, i get tingles down my spine
I love the way he hugs me, it lets me know he's mine
I love the way he tells his friends that im the most amazing girl he knows
I love the way i can tell him secrets, and he wouldn't tell a soul
I love the way he says my name,i've loved it from the start
But most of all i love the boy cuz he controls my heart


.....A BOY'S LOVE....
I love the way she makes me laugh, and the way she makes me feel
I love the way she's always there, and those kisses she lets me steal
I love the way she looks at me, like im not some other guy
I love the way she comes to me when she feels she needs to cry
I love the way she holds me, very close and tight
I love the fact that she wants to be with me every day and night
I love the way she calls me up just to say hello
I love the way she pulls me close and doesn't let me go
I love the way she reads my mind when i can't put my feelings into words
I love the way when i'm around her even my softest mumble can be heard
I love the way that despite it all she still gave me her heart
I love the way she still holds mine, and didn't tear it apart
I love this girl and i always have. It's simple and it's true. I'll never love someone else cuz amazing things dont come in 2's.

He never really loved me
or even felt the same
he never took me seriously
i was just a stupid game
he never really cared
that each night he broke my heart
he was never really there
when my world was falling apart
he never really listened to me
and thought everything was a joke
he never really called me up
when i waited by the phone
he never really touched me
in such a gentle way
he never really kissed me
in a way he wanted to stay
he never really held my hand
the way that lovers do
he never really whispered
"yeah...i love you too"
he never really made a promise
that he'd stick to in the end
he never really thought i was beautiful
it was all just for pretend
he never really did anything
he only broke my heart
but for some reason i've loved that boy from the very start....

Here's one that I just made, it's a little bit depressing, even though I'm not depressed at all

I don't think it's very good though, what do you all think??

She sits in her room all alone
Pondering what this time she had done so wrong
To make him just get up and go home
He just left without a trace
And made her wonder if ever again he would see her pretty face
She had always loved him so
And when he would do this it made her feel so low
But it was not the first time, second, or third
That he had just walked out on her, without saying a word
So she sat there and thought
"Is it because I'm not beautiful or smart, or because I never gave him all of my heart?"
After a while, all of this thinking really got to her head
And made her go into a deep depression,
which no one knew would end up making her dead
That night when everybody had fallen asleep
She went into her bathroom, and filled up the bathtub knee deep
The girl had drowned herself in the water
All because of an unloving, uncaring boy
That had made her wander...

Please tell me what you think! or

Ok, so here's an older one...

I love you so much
This I know is not a hunch
Every time I see you my stomach get butterflies
My knees get weak
What can I say….I’ve fallen for you
I love the way you laugh and talk
Even the way you walk
I love everything about you
The good and the bad
Even the sad
I will always be standing here for you
No matter how we are doing even if it may be sad and blue
I care for you too much to ever let go
You really don’t know how much, no one does
But that’s just how life goes
I’m so glad you have come into my life
And hopefully one day I will be your wife
‘Cause my whole life is great now
So just step up and take a bow
For making it better than it has ever been
And believe me, in my eyes you could never commit a sin
Ever since the day we met
This I know I will never forget
You have been here for me and I have tried my best to be here for you
Because to me, you are my boo

Pleasee tell me what you think of these 2 poems!!

i keep so much inside.. i wish i could say
im just so worried- i dont want to make a fool of myself`yah kno
its all so complicated~love is.. but then at the same time..
its so beautiful, i just wish it wasnt so hard- by brandi


sometimes when you say things
they come out totally different then what you mean
they call it- expressing yourself
and i dont know,, im just not good at it
but you, you understand me
and it makes me feel.. amazing -by brandi


love- honestly i dont know what it means
but thats okay, because i love figuring it out - by brandi


love isnt safe, its raw, people get hurt, but boy do i love it !! -by brandi


i remember how we use to talk on the phone
and just laugh having nothing to say all
we would kiss infront of everyone
and they would all stare, but we just kept kissing
i remember walking around holding hands
just looking at each other smiling
but what i cant forget.. is how much you hurt me -by brandi


you say that you cant have a relationship because you need to focus on other things, but when we were together you said i was all you cared about- why dont u just admit it.. weve both changed -by brandi


okay the answer is that u can get along life without me.. and that u can get a long life without ne one because ur amazing and u can do whutever u want, just like i can !! but honesly deep down in ur heart do u want to go life without me.. i mean its all ur choice.. deep down do u want me to be ur future.. ((im not asking if ur scared im asking do u want me to)) u just have to follow ur heart dont question it, wuts the first thing that comes to ur mind !! because no i dont really know if you can live without me- only you do.. -by brandi


^^me and my boyfrend from a year just broke up.. gave me some inspiration =\

Here are some quoes i made up, there not so good but hope they help someone...


I should’ve know better, if you did it once you can do it twice…

I used to wish that someone would hurt you the way you’d hurt me, but now I know better I wish you the best of luck..

Hope you find someone stupid enough to love you…

So stupid to cry for feelings that were never there and for people who don’t even care…

It seems impossible to me to just go, and don’t look back..

Looking back on all the times I cried for you..

I don’t even know you and I’m already missing you..

For a minute I thought you were special…

What goes around comes around

I used to believe in signs, like when I saw your name everywhere I thought “We’re meant to be…” but now I just know those signs were saying “get away from him...”

I’m tired, I’m crying, I’m hurting, I’m lonely, I’m sad, I’m afraid.. I can’t believe I’m actually getting over you…

I know it’s all my fault and that’s ok because now I know I never really counted with you...

I’m finally tired of being sad and depressed, I can’t wait to get out there and be the happy girl I used to be before I met you.

i dont like him
i dont love him
but ill live for him anyday

written by me tell me what ya think

Don’t even sit there, and call me “fake.” I express myself, I say exactly what im thinking, I’m not afraid to hurt peoples feelings, and I don’t apologize for saying what I feel. And if I’m not mistaken, that is what most people would call, being "Real"

Just some quotes I threw together this afternoon.

And once again fate slaps me back to reality.

Just when you think you count, you realize you don’t.

Don’t tempt fate…..it’ll come back to bite you in the a$$.

As soon as you get back up someone else will be waiting to push you down.

Why even try to get a head when all you find is the end.

If someone is willing to bad mouth you to your face….just imagine what they are saying behind your back.

Just when you figure out how to inflate your ego… someone comes along with a pin.

Want to know who really cares about you? Hit rock bottom and see who’s still there.

Never turn your back on someone……it’s the best target.

The nice lady went psycho because people don’t appreciate what there is in life and use those who do.

The day doesn’t start until I get my coffee.

Sadness is when you realize that the only reason your friends want you around it to boost their own ego and self esteem.

The roses are wilting and so is my happiness.

We bother with life why?

I really need to be more self centered…. No one else will give a *beep* if I don’t.

I could stand in a crowded room screaming at the top of my lungs and no one would even look up.

They say that the truth hurts… and what do they think the lies do?

How am I suppose to be me when everyone else tells me it’s wrong?

How many times must I bang my head on the wall with frustration only to realize its still not working.

Banging your head on the wall in frustration… only to realize you still have yet to knock your self out.

Who needs enemies when your friends are willing to do it for you.

I could handled him lying to me but never in my most horrible nightmares would I be able to take it from you.

Hope you like them:)

Quote -

Shes surrounded by people
But she still feels alone
She covered in blood
But she doesnt feel any pain
She wants her life to end
But she doesnt know why..

POEM -

She sits alone and thinks
Back to the times
When she was happy.

That seems so long ago
But it was only yesterday
But she'll never be happy again....
Cuz her heart got broken today.

Time has passed
And shes got stronger
The tears become no more.

Her heart heals
Her world brightons
The pain fades away
A smile forms on her face!





These r probz crap cuz im only 12 but o wells...tell me wat yall think anywayz.

Hey. Just wrote this poem. Tell me what you think..!


How can i trust you
You change everyday
You say you're there for me
Then just walk away

We see each other less each day
We talk less and less
You're so happy with your life
While I'm such a mess

You said we'd be friends forever
I guess it was a lie
You smile each day and laugh all night
While all i seem to do is cry

Whenever i started to cry
You'd wipe away my tears
But now you now here
To fight away my fears!

heres a quote i jus wrote..

Days go by but still she cries
Non stop tears flow from her eyes
Memories of him replay in her head..
As she dreams of the day, in which she dies.

wow..im the only 1 writin....lol anways gotta goo!

I wrote this poem in class one day when i was bored. So it really sucks its just a start im gonnna fix it when i have the time.

The moment I press the blade down
All the memories race through my mind.
The looks, the fake smiles, all the I love you's he never meant.
It's at that moment I realized I never meant anything to anyone.
But through this all, I stay quiet
Never mentioning all the pain I'm in.
Even if I did I don't think they would care...

here one i wrote tho not v gd!! tell me wat u think

why did you wake me from my slumbering sleep?
dreaming wildly i was in so deep
in my world of fantasies, i was so much at peace
yet now its all gona, and my pleasant dreams cease
once again i awake to my fears
my shattered hopes, my constant tears
why did you wake me to this world of pain?
where every day is just the same
the lies, the fights
the cold awkward nights
the prayers, the cries
the lonliness never dies
to the outside world, we pretend we're getting along
but on the inside nothing cud eva b more rong
so why did you wake me to this world of pretend?
you and i are make believe, we have to end.

kool i like tht 1 ^^

let me know waht u think *

hes the kind of guy who makes me want to smile when i just want to break down n cry-me

no one knows she drags the razor blade across ehr wrist hopes to die and she insists prays to god take my life... she barely falls asleep at nite - me

u think shes beautiful look at the beautiful scars upon her wrists signed with love and sealed with a kiss -me

perfection broke her and now shes prays to god just let her drown -me

and god doesnt save ehr anymore he used to save ehr from ehrslef lately shes been drowning she desperatly needs his help- me

Beautiful u say
i laugh it off
slam my hatred in ur face
beutiful i whisper
"i wish"

u told me i could fly
i said i was scared
u said u gave me wings
i refused to try
but u told me to
close my eyes and imagine it
so i closed my eyes
and imagined
no longer a dream
i really can fly
its a wonderful feeling
being just u and i

and if i had to let you go
i wouldnt know how to begin
id die first
cuz ur the life
i live within

and that night
walking thru the rain
with u, laughing the whole time
i knew i never
wanted it to end

a fairytale come tru
i whisper
my fairytale came tru
i say
a fairytale
such a beautiful story with
such a happy ending

i feel safe
i dont have to hide
i feel comfortable
showin off my lazy side
i feel beautiful in a tshirt n jeans
i feel crazy
cuz this is happening

come closer
let me wipe ur tears away
come closer
let me erase ur fears today
come closer
quit pushin me away

and all the words u couldnt say i could read in ur eyes

the look in ur eyes tells me
this is real
this isnt a game
this is how we feel
for a split second i had my doubts
but now i know what this
is all about

and for a split second
i wanted it to be done, over, complete
then my feelings came over me
that we can make it if we try
can we make it forever?

and he holds my heart in his hands
that he doesnt know
he holds my whole life in his arms
and he barely lets it show
he holds the reason
i stay in his arms
the reason ill never let go..

"and when we came together the whole wrold fell apart, a hurricane hit, that's pretty strong"

u cannot know
of the tears
i do not show
i will not show
i am strong
and i will fight
this hatred
in side me

and if u ever find me
pushing u away
remember u did it first
and i felt the same way

its unexplainable and scary
things have changed
so have we and i dont know
waht will happen in the next few years,
the next few months, all i know
is i want to spend it with u
i want to be scared, and i want us to be
unexplainable...
but most of all
i dont wanna lose u
i dont want to lose what i have with u
and that is me telling the truth

thru ur eyes i can see ur soul
unexplainable and this is waht
i know

u make me wanna fly
beleiveing i can do anything
dreming wild dreams
its like im finally
becoming someone normal to me
u r the way of life
for me

and for once im complete feeling like i never have before
and i cant go one day
without ur voice
cuz without u im not whole

then it hit me from nowhere everything i feel about me n u

u ahve told me once before how u feel
so y dont u hold me close
tell me something real

and we watch the stars
u turn to em with tears in ur eyes
i never wanna lose u
i whisper neither do i

the moment i saw u cry
i wanted to hold u
i wanted to make it go away
but i couldnt help it
and u didnt shove me away

the tears stream down my face
and im not ashamed
i dont want to see u this way

*let me know what u think* amanda

hey im new onto this but here is a few things i have wrote

Clouds of distain and regret linger over me
Tears leak out of closed eyes so desperately
Seeking escape from a broken heart
So excuse me while i fall apart

Once again the tears are falling
Once again there wiped away
Once again my heart is calling
Calling for a brighter day
But the pain seeps deeper
down into my soul
Shot my the bullet of loneliness
Fought by the battle of depression
Dying by the power of darkness

I know to think of you will only make the tears fall faster, but somehow....i cant stop

Thats all for today as i have lost my poem book but if people like them and i find my poem book i will post more

oh and for people who have posted stuff, you's are so talented

hey im kinda new here so i dnt really no wt im doin lol

well a wrote this poem neways its 1 a wrote wen i 1st startd writing so its not that gud - bt hey nvr mind

mum:
i always come second last in your life
this feeling of hatred only goes at night
why cant i make my dreams come true?
my dream is 2 cum 1st 2 u...

.x. more 2 cum .x.

Hiiii. Those are all goooood



ps im crazy hehe

I write alot...i have over 200 poems that i have written...some good some bad...

here's a few... hope you like

a hurtful word said
a frozen moment in time
step away
pretend im fine
a tear born in my eye
died on my cheek
words lost in eternity
almost hard to speak
couldnt think of the words
they were left unspoken
the one thing that came to mind
completely heartbroken

L for the loneliness you feel when its done
O for the odd feeling after he's had his fun
V for very hurt and broken hearted
E for every tear you've shed since this started
You have to be strong and try to pretend
that you didnt work so hard for this in the end

this one is kind of a guy smasher but oh well

Tears
tears are constant
behind my eyes
the flowing river
never dries
breaks my heart
squishes my pride
all of this pain
because I fell for a *g.u.y*



I wrote these, and it's all my own work ...I love to post and share them with whoever wants to read them , but please give me credit and dont claim them as yours

More

The Storm

The thunder
Bursts out
Sounding like
The earth exploding

The lightening
Flashes with brilliance
Across the evening sky
Everything just stops

The rain
Soothes the soul
Makes everything
Seem exhilarating

The wind
So fierce
So wild and uncontrollable
So degrading

The storms
Relieve a lot of emotions
They contribute to a lot
Crazy emotions

~RoUgH~

I cant pull it together or clean up my act, at evvery second im getting attacked, everyone is showing all that ive lacked, i cant hold it up & ive had enough, i always seem to be getting pushed & shoved, i dont understand why im so unloved, this sad little girl in an angry world, cant do anything right, so all they do is fight, and all she can do is cry all night, she hopes she wont wake to see the light, her schedule is rushed & tight, she needs some help in her life, but if she asks she gets more strife, she dosnt know what to do so she picks up the knife, she cuts & bleeds & cuts some more, so many thoughts before she hits the floor, now her heart is bruised & her skin is tore....but at least she can't feel the pain anymore~

-Hidden pain, swollen eyes, slit up wrists, blackened thighs, covered up with so many lies, so she learned to deal, and forgot to feel, this pain so unreal, that she just can't heal, but you learn to forget, all the pain yet no schedule to set, no tears to cry, but still listen to lies, then when people ask about the black & blue, you know exactly what to do, "He just loses it occasionly", then bail him out with a big fee, & tell him come stay with me, but maybe one day you'll see that hes never gonna change baby-

Families stick together?
Or do families fall apart?
They scratch each other
On the surface of self-esteem,
Each member waits,
Picks out it's prey
And then, in a surge of violent rage.
Will plunge the victims down
Pinning them to the ground
Leaving them hurt, helpless
Confidence shattered
Inside they're dying
Apologies make no difference
Because after this
There will be only memory of the relative
They hurt you deep down
Clawed the thing you treasure most
Whether it be partners, hobbies, habits or just
You
They ruined it with their cruel, sharp words
And then that's it
Families stick together? No
Families fall apart

You listen
Pause
Then it starts again
The prickling on the back of your neck
The cold sense of eyes
Watching your every move
The smooth gust of wind
Carrying on it mysterious whispers
Which send shivers down your spine
You look around
Trees surround
And the low chattering
Nothing else
Words are coming out of no mouths
You lie down
Upon the soft bed of
Dead leaves
Tall branches overhead
Arms outspread
The voices subside
The rustling quietens
You look into the blue-eyed sky
And you smile

Hidden with perfection when i see my reflection is what i think,look like everything but what i am, polite, petite, and oo soo neat, this fake person i just cant defeat, but i guess its better to keep the act, that way he won't attack, so i hide my pain, and have nothing to gain, put on this smile so hes happy for awhile, but i can't help this pain i feel, because i don't feel like this part of me is real, i put this smile on when i feel like dying, because its how i deal, so u let me heal....

-Tears run down my face, as im full of disgrace, in this land of make believe, where someone else is in my place, a person unknown to me, someone i dont like to see, shes hidden o so well, in this make believe hell-

Here's a poem that I wrote a couple months ago when this guy who I thought "loved" me just decided that I wasn't what he wanted and caused a scene infront of the whole school! Im new...I haven't ever posted anything...tell me what you think if you like it I'll post more!!



-||-Tearz sting my eyes-||-
as I think of how you couldn't care less
eyeliner runs down my cheek
as I think of all I've been through with you
I lay in bed
everytime I try to get
it feels like my heart is breaking
because I kno I have to move on
But the stinging won't quit
I can't make you feel the same way I feel about you
and this eyeliner won't wipe off
just like the memories that won't go away
I still can't get up
I just wanna die
I keep my eyes close
afraid if I open them I'll see something that will remind me of you
and I fight to stay awake...
afraid if I fall asleep, I'll dream of you..